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Crazy, Amazing... [Jan. 29th, 2009|04:29 am]
I am a very lucky person.  I mean, truly lucky.  Like, one-in-a-million chance, blessed, Lightning-coming-down-from-on-high type of lucky.  I have my problems, I have my off-days and my crushing self-doubts.  But, I get to be myself on my own terms and get paid to do something that I love...every day.
 
And it gets even better. I get to do this because I am AMAZINGLY lucky in the people I know.
I know (by family, friendship, acquaintance or working relationship) some of the most talented, creative and supportive people in the world.  People who are not only creative and supportive, but inspirational in their abilities and the things that they create--who are kindred in their senses of humor and passion.  Who inspire me to do my best  And I meet new people all the time.
 
I would not be able to do what I do without them.
 
And it is even more amazing to me that these people I know inspire others, some of whom have never met them, let alone eaten and drank with them, or just walked around and talked and just been friends.
These are people who entertain and inspire people all over the world as well as myself...and are my friends.
And they tell me insane things--like that someday it will be me inspiring others.
 
It is a crazy, amazing life.
 
And whether it is fortune, providence or just a confluence of luck, talent and being at the right place at the right time...I am grateful beyond measure and thankful for it.  And if you are reading this, you are probably one of those people I am talking about.
 
So, thank you.
 
For everything.

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The Modern Age... [Jan. 6th, 2009|07:30 pm]
Happy 2009!

So, Neil Gaiman responded to a Twitter I sent him. 
Should I feel as happy and excited as I do...about something so small?
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My Two Favorite Fortune Cookies... [Dec. 15th, 2008|03:00 pm]
Fortune Cookies are like every other form of soothsaying or cosmic advice out there: They are both right and wrong 50% of the time, like the proverbial Broken Clock which is right twice a day.
 
But sometimes you get nuggets which are just a joy to behold--more inspiration than divination.
One, simply states:
"You're at the critical point. Make that last push." 
I keep that taped to my computer monitor (and have in fact kept it taped on my previous two monitors as well) and it is great advice to have on a small printed piece of paper just north of my eye-line, in times of deadline distress.  It reminds me of the words "F*ck It!" I used to have scrawled on the Walkers Shortbread tin I kept my pencils and pens in during High School and Art School...just a little bit of reassuring defiance when I was feeling pressured.
 
My other favorite fortune is lost, unfortunately, but stated:
"A Thrilling Time Ahead. Be On Your Guard."
That just makes me giggle. 
It is right up with the telling Chinese curse, "May you live in Interesting Times" or a gag fortune I got once that said "Don't Leave Home Tomorrow"...
I just love positivism, mixed with that slight air of cold-blooded menace!
"A Thrilling Time Ahead. Be On Your Guard." 
Just beautiful.
There is an elegance in that statement that just sticks with you.  The promise of adventure and excitement...and the eventual price that goes with it. Good and Bad. Ying and Yang.  
There is ALWAYS a thrilling time ahead, if you look for it...after all, we DO live in Interesting Times.
 
And, oddly enough for a Fortune Cookie, it is good advice. 

Enjoy the Thrills.  Enjoy the ride. 
But always remember that the pendulum swings the other way, all Thrill rides come to an end, and nothing lasts forever.
Be prepared for sweet talk to turn sour, for the New to become Old, for some people you trust to be interested in their selfish needs more than yours. 
Be prepared. Be on your guard.
 
I prefer the term "Realistic" to "Pessimistic" because you can still have your fun, just with the knowledge that "Your Way" is not the way of the world.  Surprise, the universe doesn't revolve around you (Copernicus and Galileo proved that)!  If it did you would be much fatter and denser than you are now, and no one needs to think about that before the Holiday Cookie season.  So, enjoy your thrilling time ahead--it's yours, and you deserve it. 
 
Now, I want to find that slip of paper and put it on the opposite side of my monitor, so I can have both fortunes just above my eye-line, at all interesting times.
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The Gods' Children... [Nov. 22nd, 2008|01:00 pm]
Someone asked me earlier this year about my religious beliefs...and I was stumped.  I guess I am somewhere between an Agnostic or Atheist--I believe in the unity of everything being all a part a Whole...but I choose not to believe in a God or Heaven or Hell.  Natural Order is about as close to a deity as I claim.  I don't know what the proper term is for what I believe.

When I was asked why, I had to think long and hard about it.  And I guess what it comes down to is that I believe that the need for Gods and Goddesses and Spirits owes more to prehistoric imagination and a lack of understanding than it does the revealed word of any almighty being.  At some point, some troglodyte out there saw the sun and the moon and started talking to them as friends...and where the sun was the same every day (except for the occasional eclipse) the moon was ever changing...but within repeatable patterns.  You factor in gale force winds and certain people dying where others are spared...and it led to serious questions.  And someone came up with the idea that there was a personality behind this phenomena...and that if we can try to make this power happy, our lives will be better.  This of course, led to someone telling everyone that he had all the answers and if they made him special and powerful he would share happiness with the others.  This is where shamans and priests came from...and then religion came soon after.

I guess the real reason I don't believe in the Judeo-Christian viewpoint of God is that I refuse to believe in an omnipotent force who creates "Children" solely to praise him for their creation, gives them intelligence and free will, and then smites them for not doing what he says.

I hate it when parents use their kids as chess pawns, holding love over them as a carrot so they will do what they want. 
I see it in people all the time--the last thing I want is that in a supreme being.


And the idea of the afterlife is the biggest swindle of them all.  The Judeo-Christian concept of Heaven is an idea that can only come from a slave culture, developed by overseers to keep them at bay.  If you toil in this life, no matter how hard it is, but believe in this higher force, you will be rewarded with togetherness and joy and whatever is culturally relevant to you...but only after you die.  It is perfect. Requires no proof, but the slightest wavering in devotion and you will be cast into an eternity of the opposite of heaven...everything you hate for all eternity.

So, I guess when I die and go to Hell, it will be all lying, manipulative, power-hungry, two-faced people acting all pious and using the promise of love to control other people.  So, you know, like Earth as it is now...but for all eternity.

Better to believe in a Universe that is all made of the same stuff, from an Ant to a Supernova...that is all Unified...but Phyiscal.

Less disappointment, that way.
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Three sides to every story... [Nov. 22nd, 2008|12:21 pm]
They say there are not two, but three sides to every story: Yours, Mine and The Truth.

But what is the truth? What is it?  It is knowing all the facts, everything, from both sides...
So, it is really: Yours, Mine and Ours---which is really just Yours and Mine put together.

As we enter into the holiday season, we will be seeing family and friends and for some of us there have been some changes.  A new president-elect, new phases in our relationships, new lines drawn the sand.  We have lost people along the way or they are following their own path.  And oddly, after an election that seemed to be about coming together--about hope for the future, I keep sensing these lines of YOURS, MINE, US, THEM, RIGHT, LEFT, RIGHT, WRONG, UP, DOWN, GOOD, EVIL, LOVE, HATE all around.  Like battle lines are being drawn up--like it's a game, with winners and losers.  Like there really are sides to choose from.
Like there isn't really a bigger picture in which everything is a part of everthing else.

The Truth is there is no Yours, there is no Mine...only Ours--but we are too small to see it.  Everything just IS.

We make decisions every day, some of them life-changing...and we need to accept that our decisions impact others as well as ourselves.  And when those decisions don't work out the way we want them to, in the end, it is ourselves we have to blame.  But we point fingers and nash teeth and try to make MINE more important than YOURS...when it really is all a part of the same thing--just from a different point of view.  And it is easier to blame than to understand or fix.

That is where cheesy proverbs come in!  Yay for cheesy proverbs:
He who asks is a fool for five minutes. But he who does not ask remains a fool forever.
To really understand someone, you should try walking a mile in their shoes.
Be careful what you wish for, you might get it.
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Trick-or-Treat... [Nov. 1st, 2008|03:04 am]
I had forgotten how much I missed Trick-or Treaters.

Before buying my house, My wife and I lived in the same town-house apartment for six years...and we were "The Halloween People" on the street.  I had worked for a company that creates monsters, ghouls and haunted attractions...and I had a few of the sculptures I had made for the company.  Well, every year for Beggars Night we would set the horrifying heads up, set the lighting in the archway, I had a mixtape of great Halloween-themed music and songs and we were all set for the two hours of kids and their parents coming up for candy.  We saw the same kids every year, and we handed out an even share of candy and small scares, allowing the kids to conquer their fears by touching the horrible things and learning how they were made.

But then we bought our house a few years ago, not realizing the impact of living on a busy street.

Our house is located in a residential section of one of the highest traffic roads in our city, with cars and buses passing almost non-stop until late at night, so we knew that it would impact our Trick-or-Treaters every year.  But we were not expecting Zero beggars in over two years.  It was disheartening.

Well, a friend of ours is going through a painful separation and divorce and lives on a gorgeous residential street, tree-lined and all caught up in it's autumnal glory.  This would be his first Halloween in years without the children, so he offered to have us join him and bring a little of our fun to his street...and it was great.  A fantastic time, filled with all kinds of kids and costumes and a few brave kids who wanted to confront the monsters and find out what they were all about.  There were a couple of "cool's" and "disgusting's" throughout the night, which is the sign of good Halloween work.

After Trick-or-Treating was over, we watched Shaun of the Dead again and laughed and laughed, played a zombie themed cardgame...then I did some zombie makeup for myself and my friend and we all went to see a midnight showing of Evil Dead II, the first time any of us had seen the perennial gross-out horror comedy on the big screen. 
All-in-all it was great fun, and a good way to help not only a friend, but us as well.

Now we need to start planning for next year...
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Thanks to Steve Ellis for finding this! [Sep. 12th, 2008|02:46 pm]
Can I be officially angry and disgusted with McCain now?


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Matt Damon now has my respect... [Sep. 10th, 2008|04:31 pm]

I, for one, don't go for celebrity endorsements or condemnations...but this is just freaking funny.
The bit at the end is the best....just the best!


And in case you wonder, I totally agree with him!
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Still feeling a touch Elizabethan... [Sep. 1st, 2008|01:09 am]
We all know Liars and Lying.  We all know falsehoods and misdeeds. 
But how often do we call them out?
How often do we confront them and tell them to their faces that they are false?  

That is what it is to "Give the lie to" someone. 

Sometimes we have to do so to the world.
Sometimes we have to do so to ourselves. 
 
 
The Lie

by Sir Walter Ralegh

Go, Soul, the body's guest,
Upon a thankless errand;
Fear not to touch the best;
The truth shall be thy warrant:
Go, since I needs must die,
And give the world the lie.
Say to the court, it glows
And shines like rotten wood;
Say to the church, it shows
What's good, and doth no good:
If church and court reply,
Then give them both the lie.

Tell potentates, they live
Acting by others' action;
Not loved unless they give,
Not strong but by a faction.
If potentates reply,
Give potentates the lie.

Tell men of high condition,
That manage the estate,
Their purpose is ambition,
Their practice only hate:
And if they once reply,
Then give them all the lie.

Tell them that brave it most,
They beg for more by spending,
Who, in their greatest cost,
Seek nothing but commending.
And if they make reply,
Then give them all the lie.

Tell zeal it wants devotion;
Tell love it is but lust;
Tell time it is but motion;
Tell flesh it is but dust:
And wish them not reply,
For thou must give the lie.

Tell age it daily wasteth;
Tell honour how it alters;
Tell beauty how she blasteth;
Tell favour how it falters:
And as they shall reply,
Give every one the lie.

Tell wit how much it wrangles
In tickle points of niceness;
Tell wisdom she entangles
Herself in overwiseness:
And when they do reply,
Straight give them both the lie.

Tell physic of her boldness;
Tell skill it is pretension;
Tell charity of coldness;
Tell law it is contention:
And as they do reply,
So give them still the lie.

Tell fortune of her blindness;
Tell nature of decay;
Tell friendship of unkindness;
Tell justice of delay:
And if they will reply,
Then give them all the lie.

Tell arts they have no soundness,
But vary by esteeming;
Tell schools they want profoundness,
And stand too much on seeming:
If arts and schools reply,
Give arts and schools the lie.

Tell faith it's fled the city;
Tell how the country erreth;
Tell manhood shakes off pity
And virtue least preferreth:
And if they do reply,
Spare not to give the lie.

So when thou hast, as I
Commanded thee, done blabbing--
Although to give the lie
Deserves no less than stabbing--
Stab at thee he that will,
No stab the soul can kill.
 

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Feeling Down today... [Aug. 27th, 2008|01:48 pm]



William Shakespeare, Hamlet Act 3, Scene 1

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.


Resume, by Dorothy Parker

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

------

I am not suicidal, just introspective.  These poems are good ones to read when you have major choices laid before you so you can look at the same questions from different viewpoints.  

LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP.

J

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